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i envision standing in front of lupin, snipping my driver's license in two right before his watchful gaze. that's what i thought after it happened, standing there, spaced out, watching the other driver sink into a melt down. i hate driving at the best of times. really. but it's a ticket to convenience -- of sorts. the car ... any car ... its a blasted money pit. and ... well ... its just a pile of metal in the grand scheme of things. and ... er ... my sister did not live to tell about her head on collision. and that ... that's trippy!

so ... the airbags work folks. and that shit they put inside them? its fucking foul. it smokes, and its not healthy to breath in - seriously. and ... well ... my brand new tom petty CD is stuck in the car stereo because they had to cut the battery cable to get the horn to stop bleating. so ... while the other driver is having a melt down and the fire paramedic dudes are trying to get the two cars untangled and out of the middle of this busy downtown intersection ... so what is velvet doing? ugh ... why are people in the throes of shock so ... spaced out and completely out of reality? velvet's busy obsessing on her stuck tom petty CD ... and on how the heck she can get to wal-mart without a car to get that coffee bean grinder she wanted to get this evening.

i'm guessing that's part of the reason they detained me at the scene for like 90 minutes. because i really was not fit to be walking away unsupervised. seriously. i cannot tell you, though, how horrific the anxiety that rained on me when i sat in the back of the cop cruiser while the constable took my accident report. i had no idea police cars have no inside door panels. there ain't no way out, folks! and the windows have that metal mesh stuff on them. claustrophobic velvet really had to do some serious self talk to prevent a total panic attack from ensuing.

ok. so likely we don't got a car. ok. highly over-rated. and now ... i hate driving even more that before. it really would suck if i had to buy another CD, though. and ... well ... i never did get that coffee bean grinder yet! smiles to anyone who reads this. leave me a paw print or somethin'!

exsanguinated ... on Thursday, August 17, 2006 at 02:54 |

/bark bark bark

heres your paw print velvy. i am glad glad glad you are okay....hahaha the cop cars. yep. once when i was a pup we got caught sneaking into a drive in theatre. and the cops drove us around for a while and scared us with tales of prison life. it was fun! even then there were no handles in the back. and that was back in the prehistoric era.

i love the new TP too my favorite is flirtin with time...but the whole cd is excellent.

grrrrrrrrrrl. i followed you to your myspace page.
veddy interesting. howl!

/(soft) grrrrrrrrr

hi to lupin

Posted by Blogger sparringK9 | 17/8/06 14:24  

hey k9 ... thinkin of ya. yeah yeah i'm okay just sore sore sore. and sort of stunned.

now word about the car yet.

Posted by Blogger velvet acid tongue | 18/8/06 14:27  

damn, I'm glad you're ok (more or less).

I'm at work so I'll get back to you.

I love tom petty.

Posted by Blogger fellahere | 21/8/06 10:58  

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    its depressing, and enraging because the world burns and crumbles before our eyes. yet we sleep.

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      bell jar dreams

      tenderly,
      you held me in your arms,
      ripening
      my trembling alabaster fruit
      and savagely,
      you trampled me, underfoot
      as master of my shattered freedom
      you - the twisted and beautiful lord
      who sealed me in a windowless bell jar
      with anguish and solitude,
      as my only companions

      captor! my demented master!
      my withered soul screams for you
      it howls for the soothing barbs,
      hidden, in your voice
      and your frail, orgasmic vulnerability
      my withered soul screams your name,
      raging delicately,
      for the gaping hollows of my existence,
      which melted into yours:
      dessicated dreams,
      vanquished innocence

      this sick hunger in my heart for you -
      will it ever ebb?

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      your grace grotesquely crumbles

      your grace crumbled
      into grotesque flakes
      as your fingertips slashed
      my tender silken face
      with rage and vengence,
      that drench my frail child-spirit

      steeped in self-loathing,
      you infected me -
      impaled
      my gauzy soul
      on your poisoned barbs
      of hatred and lusty greed

      once, i loved you -
      worshipped you, adored you
      and darkness
      eviscerated my heart
      as i watched this adoration stream past
      your inert, stoney heart

      my trembling eyes splinter
      into a thousand tears
      when i look upon your face -
      my reflection - in the looking glass
      you, who deserted my child-trust -
      remain, achingly, ever present

      this dark riverbed of adoration
      that flowed in my viscera for you
      has dried up; my heart --
      which once glistened sublimely inside yours,
      now lies in eternal anguish:
      dessicated, petrified, searingly denuded

      your grace crumbles
      into grotesque flakes
      of grief, rage and greed,
      soaked in the brine of remorse
      you beg, like i did, for a morsel of mercy
      but -- i will STARVE you of forgiveness

      copyright ROXI G 2006

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        "there's no way around grief and loss: you can dodge it all you want, but sooner or later you just have to go into it, through it, and, hopefully, come out on the other side. the world you find there will never be the same as the world you left." (johnny cash)

        "i wore black because i liked it. i still do, and wearing it still means something to me. its still my symbol of rebellion - against a stagnant status quo, against our hypocritical houses of god, against people whose minds are closed to others' ideas." (johnny cash)

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        if only you would touch my heart
        if only you were to put your mouth
        to my heart
        if only you were to put your tongue
        like a red arrow
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        if you were to blow on my heart
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        it would make a dark noise,
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        like the indecision of waters,
        like autumn in full leaf
        like blood,
        with a noise of damp flames
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        if you were to blow on my heart
        near the sea, likea white ghost,
        in the spume of the wave,
        in the middle of the wind
        like a ghost unleashed,
        at the seashore, weeping.

        ... Pablo Neruda, from 'Bararole'



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        Haunted by ill angels only,
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        On a black thrones reigns upright,
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        Out of SPACE - out of TIME.

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        "and the day came when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

        “i do not like to be just one anais, whole, contained. as soon as someone defines me. i do as june does; i seek escape from the confinements of definition.”

        “i speak of relief, perhaps when i write; but it is also an engraving of pain, a tatooing of myself.”

        “we are like sculptors, constantly carving out of others the image we long for, need, love or desire, often against reality, against their benefit, and always, in the end, a disappointment, because it does not fit them.”

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